A Prayer for Today

But you, O GOD my Lord, deal on my behalf for your name’s sake; because your steadfast love is good, deliver me! For I am poor and needy, and my heart is stricken within me. I am gone like a shadow at evening; I am shaken off like a locust. My knees are weak through fasting; my body has become gaunt, with no fat. Help me, O LORD my God! Save me according to your steadfast love!
— Psalm 109:21-24; 26


As I look at these words of old, words that not soon long after being spoken turn from despair into hope, I acknowledge you as the only One who can come and save. I have looked endlessly to other things to save me, concocting schemes, hoping to be spared from the suffering that comes with my many weaknesses and the broken world I am part of. I echo the psalmist, exhausted, weary, left as what feels like being nothing.

But God, your love. Your steadfast love.

When I am empty, when I am transient, when I am weak, you change everything. You are fullness and wholeness, you are eternal and everlasting, you are strength and weightiness, glory.

Father, I am tired.

I speak a lot of these “I am” statements, constant in keeping score of how I feel. This, the story of humanity, as I speak a lot of these to God, a reminder that there is some fixing to do. Still the same, unchanging, He responds the way He always has: I AM.

Show me your glory.

I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth.
— Psalm 121:1-2